It sucks. Being healthy just sucks.

It does. It sucks. Being healthy s-u-c-k-s. Bold words, I know. And many of you reading this (my friends, family) will know that over the course of the last year I've changed my lifestyle, lost about 25 pounds and become a much happier, healthier person. With these experiences in mind, 3 months of boot camp and 6 months of changing my diet, I feel like I can safely say that being healthy, eating right, exercising regularly, is the pitts. I decided that I can't possibly be the only person who thinks so - I can't be the only person who struggles through workouts and daily diets that don't include nearly enough chocolate or chips; I can't possibly be the only person who doesn't like eating vegetables; I REFUSE to believe I am the only person who just doesn't "get" what all these health nuts are talking about when they talk about "loving" exercise and "craving" salad. Barf!  So this blog is a way to reach out to all you reasonable people who just want to sit down and devour an entire bag of chips in one sitting but can't, because you're trying to lose weight. I know how you feel...I've been there (hell, I AM there!) and together we can get through this!

I've been thinking about writing this blog for awhile - mostly to connect with others and air my frustrations of living a healthier life. I've long since decided my first post would be dedicated to those crazy liars people who talk about how much they love to work out and they "really don't crave sweets" (replace sweets with any of the following in the previous sentence and the sentiment is the same: fatty foods, fast food, chocolate, comfort foods, cheese, ice cream, dessert, etc). Baloney. Who doesn't crave everything that is good about food? Rich, comforting macaroni and cheese, or delicious, melt-in-your-mouth good chocolate cake? Who can go through life consistently saying, "Oh no, I don't think I'll have the three-cheese ravioli with delicious white wine cream sauce, I'd much rather have a simple green salad - dressing on the side, please." Who ARE these people? That's against nature! These people are either lying (and trying to make the rest of us feel bad for being normal and craving all things good in life), or the food and diet equivelant of naturally skinny people (you know, those girls who could pack away 5 Coke's, 4 bags of chips and a mozza burger with fries in one sitting and not gain a pound, ever?) It's completely natural to hate them for winning the taste bud lottery.

So this is why healthy eating just sucks. I don't want a half a chicken breast with crappy brown rice and broccoli for dinner. I want a pizza. With a glass of wine. And a bowl of ice cream for dessert. And an hour later I want to have some more ice cream, with a chocolate bar on the side, and maybe a hand full of chips to balance out the salty/sweet factor. It's a daily struggle for me to make good decisions and not sabotage myself. I know exactly how to lose weight and be successful - I've done it. You need to change your lifestyle, overhaul your diet and get your ass moving. The only thing that keeps me making the right decisions in the kitchen each and every day is a complete abject terror of having to buy fat pants again - I simply will not let myself go down that road again.

I hope that this blog will become a place where I can share my weekly (daily...hourly...) struggles with leading a healthy lifestyle, discuss some tips and tricks for losing weight and becoming more fit and commiserate with the rest of you normal people who fight the good fight against all things delicious in the food world. Welcome...I hope you enjoy :)